How To Change Your Life!

In the last month I lost both of my Grandmothers. Two amazing, beautiful, wonderful women who lead interesting, meaningful and exciting lives. While I sat at each of their funerals listening to the stories of their worlds and the amazing things they did, it really made me think about my own life and what I really wanted to do with it. Over the last 10 years I've worked odd jobs and have been good at them. I've always been in customer service and getting by day by day. Getting up miserable, unexcited, lacing passionate and wondering what I'm going to hate about the day today.

I don't want people at my funeral to be saying “She answered phones really well”

So, I've decided to change my life. After feeling depressed for a few days and unable to function, I really sat down and thought about what I wanted. Who I wanted to be in my life. What I wanted people to remember me for.

Those of you who know me well, know I've had a never ending passion (some may say obsession) for makeup. When I was a small child I was a dancer and was constantly being covered in makeup due to dance competitions and recitals. I thought Wet and Wild Red lipstick was the only lipstick that existed. When I was entering high school I specifically went to the 'trade school' in our area. Most kids went there because they had low marks, bad behavior, or needed additional assistance. My marks were fine, but I read that they had a Cosmetology program and that instantly piqued my interest. Unfortunately, I attended the high school and the Cosmo program was almost entirely hair based, which didn't really interest me. I remember doing one day of cosmetics and it was some simple face shape learning.

This lack of experience and training lead me astray in high school and put me on a path where I really didn't know what I wanted in my life. I didn't know where I wanted to go, what I wanted to do, who I wanted to be. Eventually, when I did go to college I decided to go into General Business Studies to decide what kind of business field I wanted to go into, because that was practical and I thought it's what I SHOULD do. Makeup was always that passion but it was always advised that it was a difficult field to be in, something I couldn't make money doing. It was impractical and I should not pursue it.

In the end, I am not making any money, every day is difficult and impractical, and I'm doing something I can't stand.

So I've decided to change my life.

As of today, I am officially registered for the Makeup Artist Diploma program at the Canadian Beauty College, and I've also been hired to Sephora for the season where I will be able to work until I begin school at the end of January (and hopefully make some great contacts!). As of today, I am IN THE COSMETICS INDUSTRY, and I feel so happy I could explode. All my life I have wanted to help other people feel comfortable in their own skin. Growing up I lacked confidence and was so unhappy with my appearance, and I think it really inhibited my growth and confidence to be who I wanted to be. I know the idea of makeup can be superficial, but if I can help one person feel more confident and comfortable in their own skin, if I can teach them one tip or trick to help them feel a little better about themselves, and maybe boost their confidence for that job interview, that first date, that high school prom, then I think that is all worth it.

It's a difficult time to be changing my life after having done the same thing for so long, and to be honest it's a little bit frightening and overwhelming, but I really wanted to change, and these are the first steps I'm taking. It's been a wonderful feeling to tell people that I'm going to get into Makeup Artistry and they actually say to me “Yes, you are made for that”.

Those of you who have known me for a long time know I love makeup. You'll also know that I've loved writing and used to have a pretty consistent blog I wrote very randomly about. While my new career is going to be a lot about myself, and putting myself out there and showing what I can do, I'd like to take this chance to reinvigorate my blog, and set it on a path of documenting my future.

I thank everyone who has been supporting me through this time, and for supporting me into the exciting future I am about to lead. I am truly looking forward to 2015 and what it has in store for me.

I urge you to follow your heart, and I urge you to contact me if you want to get your makeup on!